New for Kindle... Exclusively Anal

This is a short compilation that is now available on Kindle, and it's the first that I've done that has several all new stories which will not be published / available anywhere else rather than just re-vamped / extended stories (although it has a few of those too)

Exclusively Anal:  http://www.amazon.com/dp/B0088TNWQY

Woooooooo! I'm rather excited about it =) I really enjoyed writing the three new stories, they got pretty interesting.

The first one is called Party Games and it's about a husband and wife, Ryan and Ana, who really like to play with the backdoor.  Before every party they go to they have a ritual that includes some fingers and anal-lingus before Ana gets plugged.  During the party Ryan uses the vibrator in the plug to drive Ana wild until they sneak off to fulfill their desires and finish their 'game.'

From Porn To Reality is about a girl named Penny who has just moved in with her boyfriend Josh.  When her computer goes on the fritz she doesn't think anything of using his while he's at work.  Out of random curiosity she looks at his Favorites list and discovers that Josh has a fantasy he's been hiding from her.  When Josh comes home and catches Penny scrolling through everything on his computer, she has to decide whether or not to indulge her new curiosity.

My Best Friend's Sister: Luke practically grew up with his best friend James and James' annoying little sister Violet.  Three years younger than the boys, she was the bane of their existence.  When Violet returns from her first year away at college, Luke accidentally ends up as a voyeur to her anal masturbation while she cries out his name. Will he risk his friendship to give Violet the birthday present she wants from him?

So yeah. This were a lot of fun to write... it was hard not to share them on Literotica, but I feel like if I'm going to be publishing stuff on Kindle then I need to make it worth paying a couple of dollars for it and that means having material that's not available anywhere else.

The other stories available on Kindle is the re-vamped and extended Office Play and a collection of short erotic stories that have also include some re-writes / extensions. And I'll be working on some more stuff to make available on Kindle =)

Office Play

I've started releasing some stuff on Kindle lately.  The short compilation of erotic shorts that I mentioned earlier, and now I've re-released Office Play on the Kindle as well. 

Office Play was the first story / series I ever wrote for Literotica.  At the time I was in an emotionally and verbally abusive relationship, that eventually became physical.  During that time I was also coming to some realizations about myself and the fact that BDSM stories really turned me on - something I had no experience with and only knew about from reading stories on Lit.  I originally wrote this series from a standpoint of complete fantasy.  When it came right down to it I had no idea what I was talking about from a personal standpoint, I only knew what I liked to read about.  I think that the sadism of Michael in the original series may have been because of the relationship I was in at the time.

When I decided to make it available on Kindle I knew that I wanted to edit it; what I hadn't realized was how much editing I was going to put into it.  I've learned a lot since I originally wrote this series, about writing, life and BDSM.  I'm by no means an expert, or even really experienced, but I know a heck of a lot more than I did when I first wrote the series.  I was rather embarrassed when I started editing it; Michael came off as so uncaring, not at all the sexy Dom I remembered writing about.

So the novella available on Kindle has some major differences.  For one, the beginning of their relationship became much more about seduction than the reluctance / non-consent overtones that were there before.  I also took out all of the sharing that Michael does with Juan; while Juan gets to be a voyeur he is no longer a participant.  In a lot of ways I think that the relationship between Diane and Michael has become much more believable and much more loving.  While the punishment aspect remains, of course, it's no longer so sadistically brutal and it takes into consideration the limits of the human body.   Obviously, from my stories, sometimes I feel like ignoring those limits but this was not a story that I ever meant to do that with.  It was just my first and I was inexperienced.

I'm not saying that what I've made available for Kindle is completely different, but for me it's a more satisfying stories in a lot of ways.  It's a little bit longer. Some scenes are extended. I've added in a couple of scenes.  And the relationship between Michael and Diane is a lot more satisfying for me to read now.

Re-writing was an interesting experience. I'm glad I did it. I always liked these characters.  And it was fun to revisit my first ever story and see what I wanted to change about it.

A Long Long Time Ago...

I can still remember when....

No I'm not going to sing American Pie but somehow it got stuck in my head. Anyway, I can still remember when I first started writing and I was struggling to put the pictures that I saw in my head into words.  Especially without using the same words over and over again.  I recently self-published a compilation of some of my favorite shorts that I wrote for Literotica (available here: clicky) and before I self-published I went through and edited / re-vamped them.

Most of my edits were grammatical (I have a tendency to overuse commas) and some of them were just switching out words for synonyms.  Thesaurus.com much?! Yikes!!! And, of course, since they aren't free, I tried to make them better by adding more character development to most of them and by writing a couple additional sex scenes for a few of them. They're still just short stories... but yeah.

All proud of myself I asked my husband to read them and tell me what he thought.  He finished the first short story (An Exchange of Fluids), which is one of the ones I was rather proud of because I'd revised that one fairly heavily and extended the scene in it, and he looks at me and says "Are there any other words you can use for 'dick'?"

Well yes you wanker, you shaft, you  meat head, you one-eyed snake, stinking trouser trout. Gah. I consoled myself with the reminder that those were older stories and it's possible that I just didn't catch all the repetitions while I was editing. But you'd better believe I'm now keeping an eye on trying not to overuse the same descriptors... and holy crap is it hard. Because I'm always writing about the same thing: sex.

So how to change it up? Well, I've found that writing from different perspectives helps.  A man thinks differently from a woman, an older person thinks differently from a younger person, and the writing style for a first or third person story really changes the thought process and emotions of the characters.  "The Photographer" was a story that was fascinating for me to write because she's not experiencing the physical sensations that the characters involved in sex are; she is quite literally outside of that scene and, not only that, but for the most part she has to focus on her work and not her own body.

Interestingly, I think she's one of the characters I have most in common with, mentally.  I am, at heart, a voyeur.  The vast majority of my stories include things that I'd rather watch happen to someone else, and when I write or read I don't picture myself in the story, I'm sitting there watching it unfold. I've had some people ask me how I can write about things that I don't know about... I really have no idea. Over active imagination perhaps?

While I try to experience at least some small semblance of the physical acts that my characters participate in, a lot of it just comes from my supposition of what such and such would feel like.  I have gotten tons of comments, both good and bad, from people who think that I'm a male or a gay male. I assure you that, other than my strap-on, I do not have a penis (except in this dream I once had, and that was really awesome). But it makes me feel like I've done a good job of imagining what things feel like for a man... at least I hope so.

I think that being open to writing things you don't know about, being willing to open that door and take a risk, is a lot of what's helped me grow as a writer. I don't want to play it safe.  And sometimes I get swept past the grammar and the repetitious use of certain words, because I'm so involved in the story rather than the mechanics.  Because, in my opinion, that's what makes it fun.