Thursday, November 29, 2012

Bad Romance

 It's not just a song!

Although of course what people think of as "bad" can constitute many different things. I've been reading a lot of romances lately and there are a couple trends that I find incredibly annoying.

1. Woman loves man that she's known forever, when they finally fall into bed because of one circumstance or another, she blurts out her love. Man can't deal with it and somehow they end up having a sex-only relationship until he finally realizes that he's fallen in love with her too.

Okay... granted, I'm reading fiction, but come on. It drives me nuts that these female characters are often described as 'independent' and 'strong.' What is strong about telling a man over and over again that he loves you when he keeps telling you over and over again that all he wants is the sex?  And independent? Um... that's not the definition that I think of.  Even more frustratingly, the guy only realizes his love when it's too late, she leaves him and then eventually takes him back again. I guess that the leaving and having him woo her is the author's way of making him atone for his sins of hurting her when she put herself all out there (and who does THAT?) but it drives me nuts. Oh yes, you treated me like crap, used me for my body, and hurt me over and over, but now that you've realized you can't have the milk without the cow all of the sudden you love me and can't live without me? Let's get married!


2. Man thinks woman is promiscuous or slutty or whatever because of the way that her body responds to him or because they were once together and then something happened that made him think she cheated on him (and he subsequently dumped her without allowing her to explain) and so decides to use her body and get her "out of his system." Then, he finds out she's a virgin (thank goodness all these innocents manage to keep their hymen intact) and has to suddenly change his entire worldview, allowing him to love her because of her physical innocence.

Please... give me a story about a man falling in love with a woman who's had a couple of partners and isn't a milksop. The virgin thing gets old after while. I enjoyed it for a bit, but now I'm starting to prefer the stories about estranged marriages that end up working out again before they can completely end things. 

3. Somebody's life has to be in danger before the two characters can admit that they care about each other. Like... come on. Seriously. Granted, it must happen every once in awhile that two people who love each other and are refusing to admit it also happens to have a crazy stalker that kidnaps them, requiring the other to run to their rescue, or they get hit by a car or shot by a rival or whatever just at the very right moment for them to realize how much they mean to each other... but it's sooooo cliche. And unrealistic. Because it seriously can't happen that often.

But why Angel... why do you read these books? BECAUSE THEY'RE FREAKING ADDICTIVE. It's like junk food. You know it's bad for you but you can't stop shoveling the Doritos from the super size bag you got at Costco into your mouth (or am I the only one who has trouble putting the Doritos down?) until the bag is empty and you feel sick to your stomach.

I am hoping never to have any of these elements in any of my books. Do some of these themes create extra tension? Sure. Can some of them be done in ways that are hot and exciting? Absolutely. But I'm finding more and more that I want to write about the relationships that I see every day.  Maybe I'm the only one who sees tons of drama happening among her friends and family, but I really don't think I need to throw in a stalker with a gun, a drug smuggling ring, or a vindicating hymen in order to add drama and tension to a story. If that makes my books boring than so be it, but I really think I prefer to write closer to things that I actually see happen and find believable with just a liiiiittle bit of a stretch of my imagination rather than needing to wring my imagination out on a Medieval rack. 

Granted, all characters need conflict. I'm about 1/3 of the way through Chapter 9 of Being the Maid and I just dealt with a the major conflict of the story... but I've got a whole other chapter to write after 9 and so the conflict can't completely end. How boring would that be? I will admit, I'm having a lot of trouble not falling into "oh you almost died, now I realize how much I love you!" trope when it comes to Being the Maid. But I'm trying. I had someone comment that they hope Garrett gets some punishment.... eh. I don't want to seriously hurt him just to make him suffer for his actions, but hopefully the explanation that will help everyone forgive him for some of the less ah... 'good' things he's done. It's so funny to me how this series started out with lots of sex and is ending with a heavier side of plot, unlike most of my other series where things build up to the sex. But I'm having fun with it =) I'll be sad to see it go!

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Toy Review: Cunning Cactus Vibrator

So, going by the votes it seems like everyone either is supportive of me doing toy reviews or likes cheese ;)  I like cheese too. 

The Cunning Cactus Vibrator!

This is one of my more recent buys - as in, during the past year - and I specifically got it because I thought it looked both interesting and hilarious. And because I liked the three pronged approach.

 Also because of the three pronged approached which appealed to my... well... everything.  

First things first - the toy does not go quite as deeply as I had expected, in part because it gets so much bigger at the base of the main prong, however that also means that when it's vibrating it's also vibrating your pussy lips as well as everything else and that adds a whole new element of sensations. The little nubbins on the end of each prong do the same. It's not going to go very far into your asshole, but it does a wonderful job of stimulating all the little nerve endings around that hole. I will admit, mostly it makes me want something bigger to put in there, but at the same time it's a fantastic tease. If you've never tried anal but want to try a little bit of stimulation in that region, this would be a good toy for that.  The prongs are well-situated so that each of them hit right where they should, and the little nubbins buzzing against your clit and anus feel pretty damn fantastic.

The most interesting thing about this toy, in my opinion, are the six little number options on the base. Originally I thought that each number would do a completely different thing - pulse, hard vibration, low vibration, etc.  Nope, not quite. They each run a different sequence.  So #1 starts off with a hard vibration but the abruptly decreases and starts increasing again.  There is no need to change buttons mid-stream, because the sequence will keep running and doing new and interesting things as long as you don't push a new button, and as far as I can tell each sequence is almost designed to be let run until you cum, because it's going to work and tease you slowly with the pulses, throbs, and increasing and decreasing intensity.  

It's also frustrating as hell.  If you're someone who wants to pretend that her Dom is teasing her mercilessly, this is a good toy for you. Or if you're a guy who wants to use a toy on your woman that will keep her arousal building and eventually set her on edge, this is a good toy for you. The sudden changes in what the toy is doing makes it hard to cum quickly - at least for me - and so I end up just kind of writhing and building up more and more to a larger and larger orgasm. It takes awhile, but sometimes I'm in the mood for that. 

I definitely don't use this toy every time, but for those times when I want a nice, long, drawn out masturbation session it's fantastic. Sometimes I don't use this toy all the way till the end though, I'll just get myself up to fever pitch, get frustrated with the changes, and whip out my favorite dildo to finish myself off with.  That takes a lot more effort / work on my part (as opposed to just holding the cactus in place), but it's faster than relying on the changing speeds and pulses of the cactus.

If I ever use this toy in a story, it will probably be a BDSM story where the girl gets tied down to the bed spread eagle, has the toy inserted and bondage rope used to secure it in place so that it doesn't slip out, and then her Dom will enjoy torturing her breasts while the vibe does its work. 

I hope you enjoyed my first toy review... there will be others =)

Monday, November 26, 2012

Being the Maid Ch. 8

YAY! Chapter 8 of Being the Maid is now available on Lit =) I really had a lot of fun writing this chapter, despite the fact that it was hard not to want to smack some of the characters around. Splitting up Bridget from Garrett really made things interesting development-wise, especially because Patrick ended up being a lot more interested in Bridget than I had originally anticipated. Also... there was a surprising good guy for the chapter. So did not see that coming when I first started writing this series! That's definitely one of the things I love about writing the longer series though, the fact that a lot of the time what I think is going to happen when I first plan the outline has usually changed by the time the characters and the plot develops.  Makes the writing process more interesting and (I think) keeps the story more natural.

I can't believe I'm only two chapters away from the end of this series. It's definitely one of the more involved ones that I've written for Literotica. That kind of seems to be my specialty now =P Involved storylines. I'm definitely okay with that though. I seem to be moving away from the quickies.  There are still plenty of old quickies for people to read though =) I may eventually write some more, just not at the moment. Everyone seems to want the longer ones anyway ;)

I've started work on Chapter 9, but since I'm really concentrating hard on Venus Desiring at the moment, I'm probably not going to finish it until sometime next week.  We'll see. If I'm really lucky I might be able to get it done before then. But I really want to get Desiring out asap. My original goal date was November 2012 for Desiring, and I really hate going too far over my goal dates. Even if the book is longer than originally anticipated.

In other news... I'm seriously considering buying myself a Hitachi for Christmas. I want to know what it's like so I can start using them in my stories. In fact there are a whole bunch of things that I'm considering buying myself for Christmas for that exact reason. It's been years since I've tried nipple clamps and I think I want to again. I just need to get better ones than I did the last time.  Since I started writing again my toy collection has been growing again. Seems reasonable. I gotta know what I'm writing about after all ;) What I really want is to play with electricity again but that will probably have to wait because those things are expeeeeeeeeensive! And also I'd need to talk hubby into it. Not sure how he feels about electricity. Although since he's kind of a science nerd he might find it interesting and fun =D  I also think I want to try wax again.

Sometimes some things work better in fantasy / stories than they do for me in real life.  That's definitely happened in the past. But it's been a few years since I've tried some of the things and I'm thinking I might be a little bit more prepared for them this time around. At least, I want to try. I might start writing toy reviews on the blog... would anyone actually be interested in reading those? Tell you what... I'm going to make a survey. Look to the left of this blog and vote on whether or not you'd like me to start adding toy reviews to my blog. Might be an interesting addition.

Anyway... having Chapter 8 available has made my Monday seem a little better. Hopefully it's doing the same for yours ;)

Sunday, November 25, 2012

I'm Number One!

No, like really =) And I have all of you to thank for it!

If you go to Literotica's home page and read the paragraph about what's going on with the website, there's an option to check out the sneak peek for the Favorites page.  Granted, it's said sneak peek for (literally) years now rather than just turning it over to a regular page, but the page itself is updated regularly. As people favorite stories and authors, that page keeps track of how many people have favorited each story and author and lists them.

When I first stopped writing for Literotica I was listed as #3, and I maintained that position for a long time even when I was only writing a story or two a year.  When I returned to writing on a more regular basis this past summer I was at #7.  In September I hit #3 again and I was super happy about that. Even more so last month when I hit #2! When I checked today I saw that I had bumped up to #1!!!!  So thank you sooooo much to everyone who has favorited me =) I have no idea how long I'll hold the #1 spot - since #2 is only a few favorites behind me - but I'm really honored that so many people have marked me as one of their favorites on the site.

I'm definitely going to keep putting out stories and I hope that everyone will continue to enjoy them =)  I've been waiting for Chapter 8 of Being the Maid to come out but I think the fact that it was a holiday weekend here in the U.S. slowed things down in terms of how many stories were approved and released over the past few days... but it should be coming out any day now!

Working hard at getting Venus Desiring out in the next couple of weeks as well. I'm getting very close to the end, only about 4 or 5 chapters away from the end! And it's already longer than Venus Aspiring was =) That's in part because it's covering two storylines however.  I know that all of the teasers I've done have focused on Liam and Hilary, but Jessica, Justin and Chris definitely have some stuff going on in the next book as well. It's mostly Liam and Hilary though.

I hope that everyone who was celebrating Thanksgiving had a wonderful holiday and I hope everyone else had a wonderful weekend! Thank you all for making my weekend by favoriting me =)

Friday, November 23, 2012

Black Friday Venus Desiring Teaser

I hope everyone had a happy Thanksgiving! And is have a safe and riot free Black Friday. While I love Black Friday deals I will never understand the levels of crazy some people go to - seriously, we just celebrated friends and family and the next day people are causing riots because of material things. Drives me up the wall. Especially this year when some companies forced employees to work ON Thanksgiving so that they can make an extra buck. SO ANGRY. I'm not shopping at any of those places - not just today, but probably for quite awhile. I feel that's a lot of what's wrong with America today.

Okay... back to the positive cuz I"m truly not a negative person =) Had a wonderful Thanksgiving and am looking forward to the Christmas season! I love carols, decorating the tree, making cookies, all the hugs, friends, family, Christmas cards, generosity of spirit and human moments that punctuate the holiday season. I also love that there are so many other holidays with that same spirit around the time as the one that I happen to celebrate =) For me, today is the day that starts that season. I will now start listening to the radio stations that I've been avoiding for the past couple of weeks because they started playing Christmas Carols (Before Thanksgiving!) and get my holiday groove on =D

So in celebration of that, here's a little present to start off the season... A Venus Desiring teaser!!! And I def mean 'teaser' this time ;) Don't hate me for cutting it off please! LOL

This particular scene starts not long after my last teaser left off; Hilary is at Stronghold about to have her Introduction Scene with - you guessed it - Liam!

"Now, let's go over some limits for tonight. I already saw the survey you emailed to Patrick." Hilary blushed again, wishing she could sink into the floor and die. That survey had asked some seriously personal questions. What sexual activities had she already experienced, what did she want to experience, what was she curious about, what did she absolutely not want. "I like to go over them one on one as well though. That way you know that I know and understand your limits and also there's no confusion. So. No sex tonight, because there never is during an Introduction Scene."

Well that was good to know. Although, to be honest, she couldn't help but feel a little bit of disappointment. Did she want to have sex with Liam? She wasn't sure. So better that it was off the table, no questions asked. 

"I know you've done some reading on the possibilities. On your survey you marked needles, caning, welts, bruises, blood, multiple partners, electricity and medium to heavy pain as hard limits. Is there anything else that you want to make a hard limit for tonight?"

Hilary thought about it. "I'm not sure. I don't think I'm ready for bondage." She felt a little guilty as she said that, because the reason she wasn't ready was because she wasn't sure she could give up that kind of control to someone else.

"That's alright," Liam said with a smile. "I actually prefer something called honor bondage. We'll go over that later.  It's a good alternative if you're with a Dom that you don't know well enough to trust with ropes and cuffs yet."

"You don't like ropes and cuffs?" Hilary asked, a little surprised. It had always seemed like those were a requirement to BDSM.

"I like them, but what really makes me hot is when a woman holds herself in place under no more restraint than my command," Liam said, his hand caressing her thigh as he spoke. Hilary's breath caught in her throat as she imagined herself, spread out the same way ropes would hold her down to a four poster bed, struggling to stay in position because Liam had ordered her to, because that's what he wanted. It would be a choice to stay there like that, rather than the lack of one. Yes, harder for her - she found she didn't particularly like to picture another sub in that position with him - but at the same time there was definitely something exquisitely appealing about it. "And I'm not going to insist on it right now, but once we start the scene you need to refer to me as Sir. You might want to start practicing."

"Oh. Sorry... Sir," she said, trying it out.  Liam nodded his approval and caressed her thigh again, a kind of tactile reward and she felt a rush of more than physical pleasure. 

"You're not in trouble yet, honey-girl," he said, winking at her. "What about body parts? Once we start the scene I'm not going to stop to ask questions, so I need to know right now where you're comfortable having me touch you and how."


Hilary's face flushed red hot and she froze, hoping she hadn't said that out loud. Nope. Liam was still looking at her, waiting patiently, although he seemed amused enough by her blush that she felt sure he knew what she was thinking. The whole seeming-mind-reading thing was starting to become unsettling. Although it would probably help if she had better control of her body's reactions and especially of her blushes. It's not like she was hard to read. 

"I'm not sure," she whispered, twisting her hands around each other. Liam let her squirm for a moment watching her.

"Do you mind me touching your thigh right now?”

Hilary shook her head. 

“Say it out loud.”

“I-…” Hilary blushed. “I don’t mind you touching my thigh. Right now.”

He laughed at the way she made “right now” into a caveat. “I’m not making you talk to embarrass you, but communication, especially when going into a scene, is important.” Stroking his fingers down into her inner thigh, he enjoyed the way her face heated even more, but she didn’t stop him. 

“I think you’ll be more comfortable if I keep my hands mostly to myself.”

Curious, Hilary forgot to be embarrassed. “But, if you’re keeping your hands to yourself then how will you…” her voice trailed off. 

“How will I make you cum without touching your pussy?”

Mortification flooded her and Liam laughed again as she averted her eyes from his frank gaze. “Say it honey-girl.”

“H-h-how will you… how will you make me um… climax without touching my… um…”

Liam pulled her closer and she could feel his hardness pressing against her thigh, his breath was hot on her neck and made her shiver. Truthfully she was torn, because part of her really did want him to touch her everywhere. But another part of her was terrified that he might.

“Say pussy.”

Ew. Hilary squeezed her eyes shut and whispered. “My pussy.”

"Good girl."

She opened her eyes again. Liam was looking at her with a fair amount of pleasure and amusement. Darn him. "What do you usually call your pussy, honey-girl?"

"I don't," Hilary said primly.

Liam gave her a roguish grin. “Well we’ll have to see if we can change that. Don’t worry about cumming though honey-girl, you’re in good hands even if they’re not going to be touching your pussy.

Right now it really felt like her face was going to go up in flames. 


Damn, she was just too cute for words. Not to mention unintentionally snuggly. He couldn't stop stroking her, even though it was probably distracting to them both. Did she have any idea how her shy vulnerability would call to a man like him? Probably not.  Everything about Hilary screamed natural and unaffected. Not to mention that she was obviously too mortified by the blunt question and answer session to even think about dissembling. 

All of his careful planning to keep her at arm's distance had been thrown out the window the moment he'd seen her walk into the club. Mostly because he knew himself well enough to realize when he was going to need to adapt, because he was way too attracted at her to keep her at a real distance. Besides which, she was way too unsure of herself to be kept at that distance; it would do more harm than anything else. Even though this was her first night trying the submissive role on for size, he could already tell that Hilary was going to be the kind of sub who needed gentle instruction, cosseting, and affirmation to be happy.  Rewards for good behavior would work much more effectively than discipline for bad.

Although it was possible that he was just projecting his own desires onto a woman that he found wonderfully attractive, but he didn't think so. 

The pink latex was driving him wild. Not only was Hilary very pretty in pink, but it lent her a kind of innocence that made him want to take her into one of the theme rooms and thoroughly and pleasurably debauch her.  The hot pink, feminine innocence was only assisted by those huge, brown doe-eyes that revealed so much of her emotions, and the bright pink stain in her cheeks that he found so alluring.  Really he was getting more enjoyment out of making her blush than he probably should, but that was a Dom's perogative as far as he was concerned.

Part of him loved the fact that she seemed so innocent, thinking that he wouldn’t be able to make her cum unless he could touch her. In fact, all of her strictures just made tonight into even more of a challenge for him and he had to admit that it sparked an interest in him that had been absent when he'd been playing with subs lately. Especially because he wanted to see if she’d be comfortable role-playing.  

"Stand up," he said, keeping his voice mild but firm, just to see what she'd do. Despite her reluctance when she first realize who was going to be running her Introduction Scene, Hilary looked almost disappointed to have to get off of his lap.  He hid a grin. It was nice to know that he wasn't the only one feeling the sparks between them. "I have a room reserved for us upstairs. Come on."

Rather than touching her to motivate her, he turned and began walking. To his surprise Hilary was right alongside him.  The anxious expression on her face said that she was still feeling unsure, but that didn't stop her from following his order immediately. No hesitation. 

Damned if that didn't turn him on. 

Especially because it meant that, whether or not she realized it, some part of her trusted him.  There were very few subs who would follow immediately into a situation they were anxious about without some kind of reassurance, coaxing or hesitation.  But she hadn't stood and thought about it, she hadn't asked any questions or tried to delay him, she just followed him.  And he knew that she had no problem saying no if there was something she really didn't want to do; he'd seen the way she'd responded to Nathan the last time she was at the club. If she truly didn't trust Liam, she wouldn't have just followed blindly after him.

The revelation had set all his nerves humming, a rush of adrenaline flowing through him.  There was a connection between them, even though he hadn't wanted to acknowledge it before. He was starting to wonder if perhaps he'd written off newbies too quickly.

But maybe he was being too quick now and getting ahead of himself. After all, they hadn't even done their scene yet. If it went well, maybe he'd try to see her again. First they needed to do the scene though, instead of just fantasizing about what he wanted to have happen.

Opening the door to the 'Office,' he smiled and gestured at Hilary. "After you."

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

I'm On A Roll!

And not the buttered kind ;)

So not only is the alternate chapter to Contest now available on Lit - and receiving good reviews so far which is a relief for me. Definitely went out of my comfort zone a little with that one, but I've had a lot of recent feedback from people who like the rough stuff so I was hoping that it would satisfy that contingent ;) - but I've also managed to finish Chapter 8 of Being the Maid before the holiday! Of course, I don't know whether or not the holiday will slow down the rate of New Stories released on Lit, but hopefully it'll be released sometime this weekend. Writing Garrett and Bridget separately was really interesting, especially because I'm still trying to maintain some mystery around Garrett.  I'd rather that everyone (including Bridget) get to discover his history / personal stuff at the same, although readers are definitely getting more hints than she is =) 

In addition to that, I've been writing a lot on other stuff that will eventually be available on Kindle and I've also released Forced Bet on Smashwords for those of you who don't have Kindles. So far I've released Gentleman's MaidThe Venus School of Sex, Venus Aspiring and Forced Bet on Smashwords, Back in the Game will be next.  This weekend I'm going to spend any writing time that I have working on Venus Desiring... I've had a lot of people asking about Hilary and Liam lately. They're doing well! This book is just going to be longer than I thought - somewhere between Venus School and Venus Aspiring's lengths. Partly because there's a lot more story to tell for Hilary and Liam than there was for my favorite trio in Aspiring, since they're at the very beginning of their relationship, partly because the trio is still getting a couple chapters of their own story in between Hilary and Liam's and partly because Hilary is being more cautious than I originally thought she would. Which really just makes it a lot more fun.  Don't worry, there's still plenty of erotica in between the romance - mostly because Jessica, Justin and Chris really can't keep their hands off of each other. 

In celebration of the holiday I'll be posting a new teaser for Venus Desiring here on Friday. =) 

Everyone who's traveling this weekend, be safe!

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

New Story Available: Contest

Yay! I have a new story out, the reader requested alternate chapter for the Contest series. If you don't like things rough then this is one to veer away from, although I did add some romance (which I'm pretty sure was not my original intent when I was writing the series, but now everything I write seems to have some romance, even when things get brutally rough).  If you do like things rough... let me know what you think. I did a lot of new things with this particular chapter, especially when it comes to the FF domination and playing with electricity, and I'm super curious to know whether or not people like it.  If people do then that means there will be other stories incorporating some of the same themes.

This was a fun story to write, not in the least because it completed something that I had originally intended to write for the series and then ended up deciding not to. I'm kind of glad I waited and did it now as a reader request, because I've changed a lot as a writer since I first presented this series and I think that this particular chapter is a really good on its own (hopefully you'll agree with me =). 

In the meantime... I have not gotten as much done on Being the Maid as I wanted, so I'm not sure I'll have it submitted by tomorrow evening, but I'll try to buckle down and get on it =) In the meantime, enjoy the alternate chapter to Contest and the Thanksgiving build-up!

Sunday, November 18, 2012

More E-Books Now Available!


So I'm finally getting around to getting my stuff up on Smashwords.  YAY!  Now what does that mean for you? It means that if you DON'T have a kindle and you have some other kind of e-book reader, you should now be able to download my stuff.  Granted... I just started putting stuff up tonight, so not as much is available.  Also, things will be available first on Kindle in the future because they let me do things like promotions, but eventually I will have everything available on both. =) Since this is the first time I'm using Smashwords, there may be some formatting issues, similar to the ones that I have with my early Amazon works. Please let me know if you have any and I will work on correcting them!

In other news, I also submitted the alternate chapter of Contest to Literotica on Friday so that should be coming out any day now. Yay! =)

Next goal: Finish and submit Chapter 8 of Being the Maid before Thanksgiving.

I'm also going to try to get more stuff uploaded to Smashwords for you non Kindle readers =) YAY!

Hardwood Floors

In the car, I'm the designated driver, having a conversation about pubic hair.

Hubby: Actually, I just put in hardwood floors today.
Me: Wait, what? Really?
Hubby: Yep.
Me: Excuse me... sorry... I need to check out these new developments.
*stick my hand in the front of his pants*
Me: Wow, that's nice honey!
Friend in the backseat: Did that really just happen?
Other Friend in the backseat: *laughing too hard to reply*

Sometimes I think I should have my own TV show.

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Brain Overload... Mind... Melting...


I'm having one of those days when I have too many stories swirling around my head and I'm having trouble concentrating on just one. Although I have managed to get some work done and I'm sure I'll be able to continue getting work done, I just keep getting distracted. Part of it is the amount of characters in the Venus books that will eventually have their own stories... I want to sprinkle a few bits and pieces of their characters / back stories into the Venus books but then it makes me start thinking about where their stories are going to go and what I want to have happen to them, and the next thing you know I'm thinking about Master Rick's preferences instead of Liam or Justin or Chris'. *sigh* FOCUS ANGEL! 

I also had to re-write the outline for Venus Desiring again... that's... what 3 times now? Hilary wanted more romance than I had originally given her. More romance, more seduction and let her play a little bit more hard to get. So that's what we're doing and I think it's going to be really great, but i had to re-write the whole last part of the synopsis. I can say now, however, for sure that I'm almost 2/3 of the way through the book. So that's a big yay =)  I'm hoping that having re-written the outline will help, because I got so far off track with the old outline that it was almost useless trying to refer back to it and that was slowing me down somewhat. So now that I know where things are going, now that I know the characters a little better, hopefully the pace of work will increase! 

I've also worked a bit on Being the Maid Ch. 8 today... I'm still trying to figure out who are all the good guys and who are all the bad guys and what's going to happen at the end. When I first started writing I thought I already knew, but as often happens now I'm not so sure. The characters have developed a little differently than I thought they would.  Should be interesting.  Bridget is still pretty pissed at Garrett. Someone said they thought that meant that she would do something stupid. It's highly possible. She's pretty angry right now but she doesn't really have an outlet for it just yet; it'll be interesting to see what happens when she does. 

Yesterday I got a ridiculous amount of work done on the Contest Alternate chapter. I was a little bit worried that I'd lose interest, kind of like I did with A Rough Sorority Rite and it would end up being shorter than I originally planned, but so far I am definitely still interested. And the writing is going very quickly.  I think it's because of the way I have it set up, so that there's constantly something new happening to keep me interested. At first it's MF domination and then it's FF domination and now it's MFF domination and I'm just having way too much fun with it really. It's going to be a very long chapter.  And it's getting kind of nasty kinky.  Those of you who were surprised that I don't like bodily fluids (esp from pussies) are going to be even more surprised after reading this chapter I think, because I'm sure anyone reading would think that I'm kind of obsessed with fluids. For this particular story, I do seem to have a bit of a fascination with them. 

So that's what's going on right now. Lots of work getting done. Hopefully I'll be able to show more of it to you soon.

Don't forget to check out Chapter 7 of Being the Maid =)

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

A Little BDSM Chat

I've had a couple of questions about BDSM lately... the answer is... you're better off looking it up on the internet. I could definitely write a whole blog about BDSM, but I am by no means an expert. I dabble and I write, but I don't live the lifestyle. I play in it a bit and I'd like to do more - am learning how to do more with hubby - but I haven't gone as far as most of the characters in my books. 

Spanking? Love it. Same with flogging and cropping - although I've never had anyone get particularly rough with those.  Bondage? More fun. I haven't had a cane used on me before. Electricity - had someone use a violet wand on me once, just so I could see how it feel, on low level (really liked it). I'm looking into maybe eventually getting one of my own to play with. Domination/submission? Done some of it... Hubby's more of a 'top' than a "Dom," which mostly means that he's not really into giving orders. However, I've been in a club where there were Doms and I've heard them giving orders and.... just yum. Nipple clamps hurt like a BITCH but I want to try them again soon. And wax. 

So all of that is what you'll mostly see in my stories, although my characters end up going through rougher stuff than I do in real life.  And I'd make a very bad slave.  What's a slave as opposed to a sub? Well a submissive is someone who wants to submit in the bedroom, maybe a little bit outside of it. Doms and subs play together.  A Master and slave live the lifestyle, a 24/7 Total Power Exchange (TPE) where the Master makes all of the decisions.  There is something called 'high etiquette' which governs the rules of behavior for the slave. A Dom and sub will lay out guidelines for what is permissible in the bedroom and the sub can always call out a safeword to end the scene, often they are giving a slow down word as well.  Masters and slaves might have a few guidelines for how far the punishment, etc. is allowed to go, but for the most part everything is up to the Master and the slave does not need to be consulted beforehand. In this situation the slave does still have a safeword, but saying it ends the relationship rather than just the scene. At least, this is my understanding of the basic differences, although of course every relationship is different and unique to the two people with in it; there are all sorts of varying degrees between a 24/7 TPE and Dom and subbing.

The Venus characters are going to show off a lot of these different kinds of relationships.  It's already pretty obvious that Justin is a stricter Dom than Chris or Liam and that Liam prefers BDSM which has less to do with bondage and more to do with domination. He wants to give an order and have it followed - telling someone to keep their hands in a position as opposed to tying their hands into that position and leaving them no choice.  Eventually, when I start the Stronghold series, I'll be getting into some other aspects of BDSM; I want each Dom character to have his own specialty / preferences which will be explored in each book. Chances are none of them are going to go the full Master/slave route (because I'm not sure I would be able to write it convincingly) but Patrick is probably going to be pretty close to that. He's definitely the strictest out of the Stronghold Doms.

There are also pets, which are slaves that are kept more like animals - cages, leashes, tail plugs, etc. 

Daddy Doms have Baby-Girls, a form of infantalization that doesn't always go all the way to the infant level. Eventually I want to write a Daddy Dom story, I'm still working on a plot line for it (Not within the Venus/Stronghold universe, but probably for Lit).

And then there are the Dommes, like Olivia in my Venus series. Dominatrixes run their own gamut but they also have an option for 'sissification.'  That's when they turn their boy slave/sub into a 'little girl'. Dressing them in panties, fucking their 'pussies,' etc. I haven't entirely decided what kind of Domme Olivia is going to be yet. She's playing elusive with me, because I don't think she knows what direction she wants to go in yet - there are so many options. I do know that she likes boys and girls and that she's a very strict Domme, but she doesn't have a permanent sub at the moment and I'm not sure what she's looking for in one. Should be interesting to play with eventually. 

So yeah. Working on Chapter 8 of Being the Maid.  Garrett's getting a lot more showtime in this chapter, now that he's split off from the main group there's a lot more going on from his POV. I've also come up with something new and different from those back at the campsite which I hope everyone will end up enjoying. This is a fun chapter because Bridget's feeling pretty feisty after the events of Chapter 8. 

The Contest Alternate chapter is coming along really well.  There are some days when I'm like "Man I'm good! This is awesome! I'm so creative! And awesome!" and then the next day I'm like "Wtf was I thinking, I SUCK!". This is not one of those days. I'm still stuck on the "Man I'm awesome!" train hahahaha. I think I've come up with some new little maneuvers that I hope people will enjoy reading about.  I love it when I figure out something new for my characters to do during sex. Especially because I keep thinking I've run out of things that they could do, but then I end up with a character who has a super twisted mind and BOOM. Crazy, kinky stuff is happening. Makes me happy, hopefully it will everyone else too! 

And in the meantime, I've finished yet another chapter of Venus Desiring.  This is definitely going to be a longer book than Aspiring was, so it's going to take longer too but I'm really happy with what's going on with it so far.  I'm 8 chapters in and going strong, somewhere between halfway and 2/3 of the way complete. 

I think I've decided how Witch is going to end, so hopefully it won't take me long to complete that once Contest Alternate is done. After I complete Witch I'm going to finish Instruction because I feel bad that I always promised I'd continue that one and it's gotten SO many requests for me to do so that I want to live up to that. Both of those should be finished up with two more chapters for each of them and after that I'll be getting back to new reader requests. 

Happy Hump Day everyone!

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Turn Ons & Offs

Like most people, I have a lot of varied turn ons and offs.  Sometimes when I'm reading/writing a story there are some turn offs that I can get past as long as there's enough other stuff in the story that turns me on and then there are some that stop me in my tracks.

One of the biggies that will stop me in my tracks is anything to do with fecal matter.  The whole ass-to-mouth thing is also a big one for me, but I can skip over that as long as there's nothing described as being ON the dick.  As soon as anything fecal gets added to the story I'm gone. You'll never see ass-to-mouth in one of my stories unless someone specifically requests it and even then I'll get it over with as soon as possible. Even in Being the Maid with major non-consent and medieval times, anyone who uses Bridget's ass goes and cleans off before doing anything else. LOL. Golden showers are another that I'm just soooo not into and will rarely include in a story. Blood. Vomit. Basically any bodily fluids that I don't think belong. I don't really get into the fantasy of spitting on people either, although I can with it being use as a kind of lubricant. So if any of that appeals to you, unfortunately you will have to look to other stories to supply it because you're rarely going to find it in any of mine. I just can't get into writing it.

The incest/taboo is another fantasy that doesn't turn me on, but as long as I include enough things that DO turn me on I don't have a problem writing them... I tend to think of the characters as cartoons in my head and that makes every thing fine. Anyone eating out a pussy, also not a turn on for me, but one that I can get past to include in a story. It's easier to make sexy as a fantasy for me than in reality. Anything with extreme pain alternates between being a turn off for me and being completely fascinating. It usually depends on how its written. Humiliation is the same way.

The stuff that turns me on is seduction/reluctance, spanking, anal, alpha-males, bondage, and most things BDSM.  Not all things BDSM though. I'm usually not into the Master/slave stories, I prefer the Dom/sub. I am planning on eventually trying to write a Daddy Dom story which should be an interesting challenge for me. Non-Con works for me in writing although I don't even like to role play it. Weird I know. And I like a little bit of rough / BDSM / spanking, etc. in real life, nothing close to some of the rougher stuff that I write about.

Some of my stories turn me on writing them more than others, but I try to make sure that all of them do in some way because I figure it's a good indicator of whether or not other people will enjoy them.

And on that note... Being the Maid Ch. 7 is now available on Literotica.

Monday, November 12, 2012

I'm Too Sexy For This Story

Heh heh

I worked a lot on the Contest alternate chapter yesterday. Apparently I was in the mood for writing something rough. I'm excited about this one because it's the first time that I'm going to have both a male AND female Dom, also the first time I'm going to really be playing with electricity in a story, and I've managed to work in some romance too. All of which makes Angel a happy camper. I like doing new things in stories. At one point it got me hot enough just writing that I had to pause for a self-pleasure break. I always think that's a good thing.

The reader requested that I write the story of Danielle having to give herself to her ex, Doug, for 3 hours and go through all the rough stuff that he had fantasized about before she broke up with him. I'm sneaking the chapter into the very end, making it the last task that she does before the final chapter, so that the overall story arch doesn't change too much even if you read the other stories. I do feel a little weird that this particular chapter is going to be very different from the others - much longer and much more detailed. Not that anyone will have an objection to that, it just makes me wish that the other chapters were more like it LOL.

Still waiting for Chapter 7 of Being the Maid to go live... It shouldn't be too much longer because Literotica usually doesn't take more than a few days. I've started on Chapter 8. I'm not sure how people are going to feel about Chapter 7. In some ways we get a lot more information about Garrett, but it's missing a lot of information and explanations too, and it's meant to be a little confusing / cliff-hangery by the end. Chapter 8 is probably going to be one of the harder chapters for me to write because well... I want Bridget to get her happy ending sooner but she's got one more trial to get through first before we can get to the final show down and then the conclusion.

Anyway. I think I've got a lot of good stuff going on. Work that I'm proud of. Hopefully you'll be seeing Chapter 7 soon and will agree with me!

I hope everyone's having a good Veteran's Day (obs). Appreciate your day off, at my current job this is still a work day for me!

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Thank You Veterans & Wives

It's really hard to find a way to say thank you enough.  Being in the military is one of the hardest ways of life that I've ever seen.

Since high school I've known that there are several professions that I would never want to date / marry someone in and the military is at the top of that list. Because I am not that strong. I have a lot of friends who are military wives and I can't even imagine what they go through while their husbands are away. Not only loneliness, but anxiety, fear and the knowledge that their husband has put himself in harm's way. Sure, anyone could die in a car accident or get hit by a bus any day, but there's a difference between that and actively seeking out danger. I'd end up having all sorts of high blood pressure issues I'm sure.

As much as I admire my friends and family who are military, I admire their wives as well. 

Hm. Just had a thought. I don't personally know any, but I admire military husbands as well. While I know a few women in the military, at the moment none of them are married, but obviously it goes both ways.

Being in the military is something I once considered doing, but I know very well I could never be a military wife. I'd go insane with my over active imagination and I'd be too afraid of being a crappy support and of adding to my husband's burden. Considering that I already do that every time my husband is late coming home from his day job, worrying about car accidents, etc., I'm completely in awe of those who wait for their loved ones to come home from war zones.

One of my good friends is deploying again in January and that's driving me up the wall.

Men and women of the military, I salute you. Wives and husbands of the military, I think you're unsung heroes and I cannot express my admiration for you in enough words. Thank you so much for all the sacrifices you have made.

Friday, November 9, 2012

Sweet Pea

Hubby brought home a garter snake and we named him Sweet Pea. Still trying to decide what to do with him. Poor little guy was hibernating in a root cellar in a crate of sweet potatoes, and Hubby found him after taking the crate to work... fortunately the little guy hadn't been squashed. Set him up in an impromptu little habitat at home... Hubby's calling some animal place to find out whether or not it's too late to let him out into the wild or if we should keep him safe over the winter and let him out in the spring. Either way, I'm already attached, I'm such a sucker for animals.

Anyway... back to what's going on in my writing LOL.  I've submitted Chapter 7 of Being the Maid! HOORAY! I know it took me awhile. It's an interesting chapter... not quite as intense as some of the other ones, but I think the ending is a bit cliff hangery and so hopefully that will keep people's interest. Things are about to get REAL interesting for both Garrett and Bridget and we're going to be hitting the climax soon! Only a couple more chapters to go till the end! Three to be exact =) I never really look forward to finishing a series, because I always enjoy the story and the characters, but there is definitely something satisfying about completing a piece, even though I'm sad it's over. I'm sure Anomandaris will be thrilled that this chapter is fairly long ;) Although I think the next chapter is going to be even longer cuz there's going to be a LOT going on in it!

Now that Chapter 7 is out I'll have a bit more time to work on some other stuff... I've already started working on the reader requested alternate Chapter for Contest, which I think some fans (looking at you Gemini) will really enjoy.  I've gotten some recent requests for roughness, but this particular request really takes the cake and I'm looking forward to writing some new scenes incorporating pieces of erotic play that I haven't used before.  At the same time, I have a feeling that my need to make everything slightly romantic is also going to come out. I just can't seem to do without it lately. I re-read the previous Contest chapters that I've written and they were all pretty short with not nearly the emotional depth or sexual description that I usually use now, so I decided to write the chapter in my current style rather than my past. I think it'll be a much better chapter because of that, although very different from the previous chapters.

After the Contest chapter I'll be finishing Witch (as promised to those who voted!) which is also rough but in a different way from either Being the Maid or Contest. I feel like I'm really flexing my writing muscles lately! It's good for me =) And in the meantime, as always, working on Venus Desiring. I'm really hoping to have that one out by the end of this month but I'm not sure it's going to happen... it's looking like it will probably be longer than Venus Aspiring and so is going to take longer to write. But I also think  that it's going to be a really good book and that people will be really happy with it... so far my Beta Reader seems to be enjoying other than the fact that I haven't sent her a chapter since going on vacation. Eek. 

So yeah. Enough with the blogging... back to the writing. 

Take care and have a great weekend! Keep an eye out for Chapter 7 - although of course I'll also post when it goes live =)

Thursday, November 8, 2012

Autobiographical Stories

I do have a few. Well, a few that are close to real life anyway, or are based on something that has happened in my life. I have a few characters that are based heavily on myself and my husband.

Why do I bring this up? Well someone commented on Tricked with a Treat wondering if it was autobiographical. The answer is no. Although the setting is based on a party that I actually went to. It would certainly be a cool way to snare a husband!

My story is much less thrilling and a little bit more face-palm LOL

I was a few months out from an awful break up with my high school sweetheart ending our 6 1/2 year relationship.  We'd finally gotten to the point where we weren't even trying to "just date" or "be friends" or any of that.  It was too soon. However, we couldn't quite get away from each other either because we had a lot of the same friends and we were both doing theater at the same school (nothing like doing a show with someone you're not talking to). So I was drinking and partying a lot. I discovered that I absolutely cannot hold Old Grandfather Bourbon Whiskey at one of those parties. My alcohol tolerance at that point was pretty high, I hated beer and I was playing "beer" pong and flip cup with liquor or mixed drinks. Sometimes shots. But on the night I had 6 shorts of Old Grandfather Bourbon Whiskey I ended up standing with my back against the wall, plastered to it as much as possible, and sobbing hysterically whenever someone tried to get me to move. One of my guy friends finally managed to talk me into sitting down on the couch. I just was afraid of moving because I was soooo dizzy. It was rather odd since normally I could have a lot more and be just fine.

So at a friend's birthday party I did the responsible thing and only had 2 shots of Old Grandfather Bourbon Whiskey. About half an hour later I was dancing in the middle of the room when I realized I was getting dizzy again... the wall was too far away but there was a pole in the middle of the room and standing next to it was the same guy friend who had talked me down the last time. I stumbled over and grabbed onto that pole for dear life, smiling wastey-faced at my buddy who shook his head at me and introduced me to the guy standing next to him - my future husband.

Romantic right? Hahahahaha.

Even better - he was also just getting out of a 7 year relationship and later in the evening when I approached him again he thought I was hitting on him and told me so, and said that he wasn't interested in getting into anything. At which point I laughed and said "me too!" and we ended up talking about what it's like to be getting out of such a long term relationship and how most of our friends didn't understand at all.  It's kind of funny we hadn't met before because we had a LOT of friends in common, but it was definitely the right time. Any other time and we probably wouldn't have gotten together. But he started showing up at parties more often, which he rarely had before, and so we got to know each other. Although, since he was showing up at parties, I was drunk the first three times that we hung out.

And then he didn't even kiss me on our first date. Which made me wonder if it WAS a first date. Later we decided it was.

At any rate, real life is never as romantic as in stories, but to be honest, I love our 'how we met' story. Even if I'm not going to be able to tell it to my children until they're... well... past the age when they think drinking constantly is a good idea LOL.  Although I was just following in family tradition. My mom was sloshy drunk when she met my dad =D

It's highly possible that you might see a story similar to this in the Stronghold universe one day... although I'm not going to say which characters ;)

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Let the Gay Marrying Begin!!!!

I am incredibly proud to say that yesterday I became part of history by voting for Question 6 in Maryland's election and now live in the first state where you can get gay married!!!!! YAY!!!!!

The law is carefully formulated so that members of the clergy who objects to gay marriage do not have to perform them, but what's important is that homosexuals in Maryland can now have the same secular rights as heterosexual couples. Because there are different kinds of marriage, although in the United States we tend to bundle it together. In Europe couples often have two ceremonies, one religious and one secular. Here, we do either both or just secular. So it's pretty stupid, in my opinion, that religion has effected whether or not people can have a secular marriage.  Drives me up the wall in fact.  If someone is against gay marriage, that's fine... but I don't see why they should get to dictate someone else's life. Personally I'm against eating seafood, because it's gross - and hey, I've got biblical back-up for it too! - but I don't push those views onto everyone in my life, because people should be able to choose what they want to put in their mouth (heh heh heh....)

Anyway. That's my foray into politics for today, and it's not really so much politics as culture and history!

Still working hard on Being the Maid. At the moment I'm about halfway through the chapter and am planning on submitting by this weekend. I'm suspending work on everything else until I get the next chapter out... after that I have a rather interesting reader request for an alternate chapter of Contest, where Danielle has to fulfill one of the tasks that I didn't have her do in the original series, while I work on Chapter 8 of Maid.  and of course, Venus Desiring.

I can't believe it's already November... this fall is going by sooooo quickly!

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

I Need A Vacation...

to follow up my vacation.


Not that I didn't have a fabulous time (I did), but I did not get the relaxation that I was hoping for.  A cruise is soooo diff from spending all week with your friends! Hubby and I did manage to get some alone time, but not nearly as much as we would have on a cruise. Although, of course, if we'd been on the cruise we probably would have been miserably sea sick.

It's just that I really needed some relaxation!!!!

The bad news... I also had VERY little time to write. The good news... I finished a chapter for Venus Desiring. Unfortunately finishing the next chapter to Being the Maid is probably going to take a few more days.  I have managed to get a fair amount done on the chapter since getting home, but there's a lot more to do... plot is thickening!!!!! among other things ;) hahahahaha

So... no political comments please, but I hope all the U.S. citizens voted today! I'm always very grateful to live in a society where the community's voice is heard... make sure you let yours ring out. 

Saturday, November 3, 2012

I Won?!

I won my first ever contest on Literotica!!!! This was especially exciting for me because the last time I even placed in a Literotica contest was Survivorphile, which was about quantity, not quality.  Although I did try to do good quality, I've never even placed in a 'quality' contest before =)  Thank you so much for everyone who read my story and voted. I'm really honored and excited. I worked hard on that story so it was really wonderful to be validated!

Of course, I had an idea for a Christmas story too but now I can't enter the contest because I have to wait 6 months before I can enter a contest again after winning one. So that will have to wait till next year... can't be sad though. Too happy about winning!!!!

I'm having a wonderful vacation right now although I haven't gotten much work done and most of it has been on Venus Desiring so you won't be able to read it for awhile... I didn't have as much time to write this week since the cruise got canceled. On the other hand, I have gotten to do a lot of things I wouldn't have otherwise... like go to Disney World! Which I had never done before. Got it in before I turned 30. WOO!

It will be good to get home and get writing done though, I have lots of things going through my head. Hilary and Liam are making me happy. I'm hoping to finish Desiring by the end of this month. =)