Longer vs. Shorter

I realized yesterday that I write the same way I used to date.

I was working on re-writing and expanding Poker Loser to have more of a plot line, more character development, more interactions and I noticed how very little it has of that - especially in the beginning - compared to my current stories Submission  and Venus School.  One of my friends told me that it's one of his favorite series that I have on Lit. but it always really bugged him that it starts off with a poker game and there's not really any lead-in.

My response was that when I'm on Lit, I'm not looking for a story, I'm looking for quick down and dirty sex.  However, when I read romance novels I want some tension, some build-up, some bumps along the way before the characters come together for an awesome climax (pun intended).

Which is exactly how I am when it comes to men. I don't date, I'm either in a relationship or I'm having a one night stand with someone that I trust but will then immediately stop being interested in / flirting with afterwards. I've only ever had 2 relationships, and I married the second one. The first one lasted for 7 years. In between the two, if I was very attracted to a guy - especially someone I had been attracted to during my first relationship - I'd sleep with him. And then never call again. Well, not never, but make it clear that it wasn't going to happen again. Not because the sex wasn't good. Just because the interest was now satisfied and I didn't want a relationship so it was better to just get my fix and go.

Sounds harsh but I was always very clear and honest about my intentions. And I'd learned not to let things go farther than one night. I did try to date, once, right after my first relationship.  Was totally open about the fact that I was rebounding and that I didn't want a relationship.  Thought that would be enough. It wasn't. I learned that guys can get just as emotionally involved with or without my own emotional involvement.  For me, caring about someone isn't enough. I need that quintessential spark. I had it in my first relationship and I wasn't going to settle for anything less.

Thankfully I met my wonderful husband. And we took our time getting to know each other before anything seriously intimate happened. In fact, in both of my relationships it was months of being together before we had sex. This being in sharp contrast to the one-nighters.

Now, for Literotica I'm finding that I still want to write the quickies that have a satisfying climax at the end of every chapter or story, but as I'm starting to think about book plot lines and possibly longer stories, I want to draw it out a little. Make the characters work for it a little harder.  I use Lit for the quick and easy one night stands and tend to stick with my romance novels (and lately BDSM eBooks) for when I want something more long-term.

Poker Loser Redux

Yesterday I submitted another chapter for Submission.  Alanna's being a feisty slave and gets some more punishment, and she does some attempts at topping from the bottom.  And David finally takes her anal virginity.  So that was a lot of fun. Today I think I'm going to take a short break from writing more for that or Venus School, just to clear my head a little. Sometimes I need to do that.

Instead I'm planning on revisiting an old story - Poker Loser.  Allison and Todd were too of my favorite characters. Although it started out just a random short story, reader requests and the fact that I rather liked the characters turned it into the many chapters of Poker Loser.  And then fans of the series convinced me to keep going with Allison's New Life.  Now I think I'd like to revisit it like I did Office Play, only more so. I want to turn it into an actual book, with some back story as to how they ended up playing that poker game, etc.  And develop the characters a little further. It's not going to be the exact same story.  Like I did with Office Play, I'd like to add a little bit more of a romantic development to it, so I've gotta figure out how to smooth out the fact that it originally started as a non-consent story =P When it's ready and out for the Kindle I'll post about it of course.

I also have a friend that's been bugging me to write Roger's story for forever, as a spin-off.  I may end up doing a whole little thing for that, I always enjoyed Roger's turn around.

But for today I'm gonna focus on Todd and Allison. 

And hopefully that'll help me figure out what Jessica, Fire and Flood are going to be doing during her second week of school.

Being Curious

So, along with my own writing, I do a lot of reading. Especially BDSM-y stuff.  I've kind of transitioned from reading (and therefore writing) about things that just sound painful, to being very curious about the actual lifestyle. While I used to have several good friends who were involved in the lifestyle, I have unfortunately drifted from them over the years.  I miss having that connection.  And people to pester when I'm filled to the brim with questions (which is constantly).

Today I read a book called Submissive Training and in some ways it reminded me of the Venus School except that it was all BDSM related and took place at a conference. I really hope the author knew what she was talking about, and it certainly seemed (to me) like she did. I wish I could write about stuff like that, but it's not what I know.  Which is why so many of my BDSM stories are people being introduced to the lifestyle... I don't know enough to write about people actually living it.  

As for my own writing... I submitted Chapter 11 of Submission yesterday.  So now 10 & 11 are in and waiting to come out.  Alanna cracks me up when I'm writing her.  Partly because she's completely naive and partly because she's just so darn feisty.  Chapter 10 deals with her first punishment, which is in the one locked room in David's house.  Which she doesn't get to see, of course. Chapter 11 brings her back to the locked room, but for pleasure. And she still has no idea that she's in a dungeon. I'm looking forward to Chapter 12 because it's going to bring a new aspect of her training into play - one that she's going to resist which means YAY! more punishment! LOL. She just enjoys it so much that it's hard not to give it to her.

The next chapter of Venus School has also been submitted.  However it's under the non-erotic category, which I know I hardly write in... but Jessica's Sunday took a little longer than I thought it would and it was either going to be a BDSM chapter with a ridiculously long intro before it got to any of the BDSM-y stuff or I could just submit it as Non-Erotic.  Which, I was originally planning on doing the former, but then the relationship-y / emotional / getting to know each other stuff ended up becoming its own chapter.  So that's kind of fun. It's more of a teaser chapter than anything, but I (hope) it shows how their relationships and feelings are developing and gives a deeper insight into the characters outside of the fantastic sex they're having.

Also... I just have to reiterate how much I love seeing that readers are so invested in the characters and who they want to get the girl.  I'm seriously considering writing a follow-up book.  Obviously I'll finish out the series on Literotica, cuz I like happy endings (and I don't like the idea of shorting people by suddenly switching over to book form), but I have an idea for a book about them once they get back into the real world and have to actually make the relationship work (whoever wins).

I've also started to write the next chapter for House of Fantasy, this one will be in the Interracial category and it's focused on large male equipment, but it's also the first time that I'm writing a chapter for the House where the main character is wrong about her fantasy.  I'm really enjoying this series, but I'm a little worried because I've only got about two more ideas for chapters for it... so if anyone has ideas for a fantasy they'd like to see the House fulfill, please email me or leave a comment on one of the previous chapters!

New for Kindle... Exclusively Anal

This is a short compilation that is now available on Kindle, and it's the first that I've done that has several all new stories which will not be published / available anywhere else rather than just re-vamped / extended stories (although it has a few of those too)

Exclusively Anal:  http://www.amazon.com/dp/B0088TNWQY

Woooooooo! I'm rather excited about it =) I really enjoyed writing the three new stories, they got pretty interesting.

The first one is called Party Games and it's about a husband and wife, Ryan and Ana, who really like to play with the backdoor.  Before every party they go to they have a ritual that includes some fingers and anal-lingus before Ana gets plugged.  During the party Ryan uses the vibrator in the plug to drive Ana wild until they sneak off to fulfill their desires and finish their 'game.'

From Porn To Reality is about a girl named Penny who has just moved in with her boyfriend Josh.  When her computer goes on the fritz she doesn't think anything of using his while he's at work.  Out of random curiosity she looks at his Favorites list and discovers that Josh has a fantasy he's been hiding from her.  When Josh comes home and catches Penny scrolling through everything on his computer, she has to decide whether or not to indulge her new curiosity.

My Best Friend's Sister: Luke practically grew up with his best friend James and James' annoying little sister Violet.  Three years younger than the boys, she was the bane of their existence.  When Violet returns from her first year away at college, Luke accidentally ends up as a voyeur to her anal masturbation while she cries out his name. Will he risk his friendship to give Violet the birthday present she wants from him?

So yeah. This were a lot of fun to write... it was hard not to share them on Literotica, but I feel like if I'm going to be publishing stuff on Kindle then I need to make it worth paying a couple of dollars for it and that means having material that's not available anywhere else.

The other stories available on Kindle is the re-vamped and extended Office Play and a collection of short erotic stories that have also include some re-writes / extensions. And I'll be working on some more stuff to make available on Kindle =)

Current Projects & Feedback

I got my first feedback from someone who's reading this blog as well as my stories yay! Thank you CJ for letting me know =) I'm enjoying writing this blog, it helps me organize my thoughts and also just get out some of the rambling that I have going on in my head, but I'm hoping it'll also be good insight for people who enjoy the stories and maybe insight into me. I know I'm often curious about other authors and who they are and how that effects their writing. So yeah. I appreciate the feedback!

Current projects! Obviously Submission and Venus School are ongoing.  The chapter detailing Jessica's Saturday night (the description of which is 'Jessica is overwhelmed by Flood and Fire') has been submitted. I'm now working on the next chapter (Sunday) and debating on going right into the school week or submitting it in the non-erotic category.  I'll probably do the former. 

The second week of classes isn't going to be as detailed as the first week, I'm probably going to focus on one class per day, two at the very most.  I have her schedule already figured out (and she will definitely be taking the Menage course for those who enjoy the group scenes).  The series will end with a finale after she returns home; I don't want to leave people hanging wondering what happens when she returns to the real world and finally gets to know Chris and Justin as their true selves in her life! At the moment I am fairly sure I'll be writing 3 separate endings.  I'm touched by how involved readers are with the characters and the amount of feedback I'm getting rooting for one over the other, or for both. Those kind of comments tell me how invested people are and it makes me feel really good about the story as a whole.

I have written an outline for Submission. I'm currently in the middle of writing the next chapter, and there will be 18 chapters total. For those who don't think that's enough of Alanna and David, I'm actually writing an alternate storyline for them which will be submitted to a publisher that expressed interest in it.  The storyline for Literotica is basically their life together without any outside influence.  The story line that is being written for the publisher is going to be a BDSM romance and involves outside forces which are trying to separate them, and how their relationship develops because of that (and as they fight to remain together). I'm having a lot of fun writing two separate story lines for them, in part because I enjoy the characters so much and it's interesting to see what they do when put into different situations.

Outside of the series... yesterday I submitted a Mind Control story titled Truth Will Set You Free, which is not a category I'm used to writing in.  I find it refreshing to step outside my comfort zone for the shorter stories.  The other stand-alone short story that I'm working on is called Counting the Hours and will be submitted either under Novellas or Erotic Horror. More on those in a later blog.

For my self-publishing stuff that I have going on, I'm in the middle of formatting another compilation which will have 3 original stories unavailable anywhere else and will be (like the others) available on Kindle. Looking forward to that since it's my first one with completely new works, which I will not be putting up on Literotica at all.  Although it will also have some of the popular stories that are on Literotica as well, but edited and re-vamped.

I just constantly have things going on in my head. And I can't write without thinking of even more new stories that I want to write.

For the future... I want to complete more of the series that I haven't finished yet and have left people hanging on for years.  From Terra will probably be my next completion, now that I've finished Behind the Story and Living With Uncle John.

When it comes to completely new stuff, after Submission and Venus School are done I'd like to go historical and do some stuff with ancient Rome and the emperors with the worst reputations.  A reader suggested / requested a Mars School (ie. similar to Venus but with a male main character) and I'd like to do that but I'm feeling a little under-qualified for writing it. We'll see. I've also been contemplating doing a couple of spin-offs of popular stories - I have ideas in mind for a re-telling of Dracula, the Hunger Games (into the Sex Games), and some of Shakespeare's characters. So that's where I'm at today. I have a lot of ideas bouncing around in my head and it's making it hard for me to concentrate.

I'm going to cut the rambling now, otherwise this post is going to get out of hand.

Loving Wives

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Culture Shock

So I just spent... I don't even know how long reading Sir Nathan's Culture Shock on Literotica.

Oh. My. Stars.

Is there any actual sex? No. Which he warns about at the beginning of the story. But holy crap. One of the hottest things I've ever read.  For anyone with BDSM fantasies or interests I feel like it's a must-read. Reading it brought up some of my own memories, not just of my own burgeoning interest in BDSM but also because of the fact that there was no sex in the story.

When I first started reading Lit stories and began finding myself reading more and more BDSM stories, I was just like the main character in Culture Shock.  Wildly curious. Incredibly turned on.  And feeling like someone had hit all my buttons - this was what I wanted. Craved. Needed. Had no idea how to get.

I was in an emotionally abusive relationship at the time.  In some ways it wasn't his fault - and I know how fucked up that sounds but it's true. Neither of us knew how to handle being together, we were high school sweethearts and by the time we got to college we were all wrong for each other and neither of us wanted to give up.  When I started expressing an interest in the BDSM stuff he tried... but it just ended up being an empty practice. Left me yearning for more.

Enter Mike. The moment I saw him, the very first thing that I thought was "Holy crap I want to tie him up... or have him tie me down..."  Instant chemical connection.  I name a lot of my dominant story characters Mike. Which is kind of funny because it turned out that Mike was actually submissive.  But I didn't know that then. I just knew that he looked at me and I felt like he saw inside me to that need. The day I met him I did one of the bravest things I've ever done: I walked up to him and asked to touch his hair.  Not my usual style. I'm excessively shy when meeting new people unless I'm surrounded by a bunch of other people that I'm friends with.

Eventually he and I became good friends. He took care of me like a good Dom would in many ways. Checked up on me, held me when I cried, supported me, and he was a big part of the reason I was finally able to get out of my relationship gone wrong. 

We never had sex. Or even kissed. We slept together constantly. We did go skinny-dipping once - my story River Walkers is about that all the way up until the characters actually start getting it on. That was pure fantasy on my part. I loved cuddling up to him in his bed. I trusted him implicitly.

The most sexually arousing experience of my life that didn't end in anyone getting an orgasm was with Mike. He and I would go to a goth dance club a lot.  Then one night he asked me if I wanted to go to a BDSM club. I said yes, of course. I was dying to see it, even from the fringes.  He picked out my outfit to wear. Very conservative.  Black one shoulder shirt made out of lace, the front of it had material underneath the lace, the back did not.  Short black skirt. Black fishnets and boots. 

The club was dark. Sexy. Filled with people doing things I'd only read about.  There were nooks along the wall where people were tied or chained up.  Being spanked. Whipped. Flogged. I huddled against Mike, feeling completely out of my element, terrified and incredibly horny.  He stuck by my side all night - except for 10 minutes which I'll get to.  Mostly I just watched. Several people came up to try to talk to me and I practically hid in him. A couple of them complimented him on me. Which just turned me on even more.

Then Mike told me that he wanted to be whipped.  Would I be okay if he left my side so he could go do that? I said sure. Trying to be Miss Independent.  Well he took off his shirt and gave me his jacket, and I held them while he got up on a platform in the middle of the club with one of the Doms - who was tall, older, muscular and sexy as hell and whose name I can't remember - had him lean forward against a table and then began whipping him.  I started off watching from the side, but then I moved around and watched Mike's face. The look of lust and excitement and fulfillment was exactly what I craved.

I wanted to jump him so bad, but mostly I wanted him to be doing that to me.

Afterwards he put his shirt back on. Asked if there was anything I wanted to do.  I couldn't make myself tell him that I wanted what he had just done. But there was something else I was curious about. I pointed to a corner where a girl was tied up and being worked over with an electric wand. I have this awful vice known as overwhelming curiosity. I wanted to know what it felt like. So Mike took my hand and led me over, told the Dom that I was curious about the wand. He was very kind, smiled at me reassuringly and said that he would let me feel it on low.

Mike held my left hand as the Dom touched the wand to my right... it felt tingly and hot and dangerous. He moved it up my arm.  I was panting, half with excitement and half with fear and I started squirming a little.  Mike reached up to the nape of my neck, slid his fingers through my hair and took a handful, and then he pulled my head back as the wand ran over my collarbone. I nearly fell apart just from that.

Afterwards he held me.

I think I had a tendency to bring out Mike's dominant side, but not enough that we ever moved past being friends. I did consider him an intimate.  And it rather reminds me how much I miss him.

Anyway. The point to all this rambling is, those are the memories that Culture Shock brought up for me. It's a fantastic piece. Sometimes the build up can be just as satisfying as the actual event.

Yummy.